A while ago, I talked about the inner burning desire to always do something bigger. Well, the inner demons are screaming again.

I am kidding people.

My desire to learn and achieve has been temporarily mollified by the fact that I moved to payroll, something new, something bigger, something challenging, for the time being. But what about in a month and a half when I have it all down pat and am no longer learning, what then? I am waffling between describing myself as a precocious child, terribly impatient or just down right immature. I would like to think of my quick learning curve and constant desire to learn something new as a sign of intelligence, but I am dreadfully afraid it is a sign of childishness.

Yesterday, I mentioned to Joy this whole idea, to which she replied "it is a part of growing up." Dammit. I hate it when people say that. So annoying. But she meant it nicely, so I will forgive her. Quick digression there. Do I have to settle for that? Do I have to settle for something that doesn't challenge me? What can I do that will stretch me and helo me become a better person, professionally and personally?

Help me people. I am drowning.