i have yet another birthday approaching in a few weeks. just thinking about getting a year older depresses and tires me. it doesn't help that fall has already filled me with yearning to be anywhere--but here. i tire of being alone. i tire of having no life plan. i tire of being me.
sometimes life just makes you ache. and the only thing worse than longing is longing alone.
i feel restless, cranky and a wee bit sad. i have no idea why. i wish i did.
Loneliness is a thief that robs us of the joy that solitude can bring. Look inward for contentment, not outward...
ugh...SAD disorder... Seasonal Affective Disorder...the blues that can come when the days get shorter...darkness comes sooner...and the wind gets that foretelling chill in the air....making ppl feel totally discontent...and suddenly....BLAH!
classic signs it sounds...hits many ppl in the Northeast as of late.... not to say that your reasons are not legitimate to feel the way you do....
..cause they are...and I can so relate and empathize(gosh can i ever; I turn 26 in December)...but that SAD thing can be quite the trigger this time of year...
something to consider....I've noticed mine kick up in the last week and a half or so....trying to get a grip so I do not get into a deeper funk....spiraling downward for no good reason...
:) I wish you nothing but sunny days of hopefilled possibility and new adventure with a big bubbling up of youthful zest for life!
Press in with the Lord...not to sound cliche....but He'll help ya sort the truth from the lie and comfort you in due time ;)
Take care and God bless, kelly <>< (Western PA)
Suck it up, girl. :-) You're how old? 20 or something? I just turned 28. You can bitch and moan when you get to that point, but not yet. :-)
Kinda makes me think of this quote from CS Lewis. (Good old Louie!)
"If I find in myself a desire which no experience in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that I was made for another world."
hang in there darling.
I offer no remedy, no dismissal of your feelings, and no probable explanation. I only offer you my emphathy and continued friendship. I truly cannot fully understand what you are feeling, I can only imagine and try to relate the best I can. I know in some of my more recent moments of uncertainty you have provided insight and encouragement that has proved to be beneficial. It is a gift I would love to return to you. I truly admire you and believe in you.
Princess, that was a great quote...