I am, by my very nature of being raised, a drama queen. I am rather ashamed to admit that, because I personally hate being around drama queens. I might be one, but that doesn't mean I like it.

Actually, I try very, very hard not to be one. Every now and then those dreadful little tendancies tend to slip out, at the worst of times. Maybe it's because I like dealing with crises, maybe it's because I am used to dealing with them. Maybe being the youngest of four girls, it was trained into me. There are allot of maybe's. But on any account, I have gotten to the point where I have had my full share of drama and do not need to create any more.

The real problem with being a drama queen, is it hurts people. Plain and simple. I am now making ammends for situations I could have handled in a more delicate manner. And now, thought at the time I wasn't, I am very sorry for hurting the people that were exploited in my quest for dramatics. Sad, isn't it? I think what is even sadder, is that it took me so long to realize it. It wasn't that I was \trying to use them, in fact, sometimes it was quite true, it is just that I exaggerated and made it plenty more hurtful than it had to be.

Alas! The lessons we learn as we look back...